Tuesday, September 09, 2008

You Quit Your Job Today

Posted by Anonymous.

OMG.

You quit your job today. We have 2 kids to feed, school to pay for and medical bills, and grocery bills, and why did I buy that new couch?

You quit your job today. I am so neurotically scared. What will we do, how will things get done? Am I going to be homeless? Oh, my, I am such a drama queen even in my head.

You quit your job today. I am trying so hard to be optimistic, supportive, and wise. But, seriously? You quit your F'ing job today. Because it was boring and complicated. And you don't have another. And you want to start your own business. And we live off your income. How can I be optimistic, supportive and wise when I am so scared? I am a Zoloft-taking, therapy ridden, sleep deprived, materialistic, stay at home mother of two without a college degree. (Truly, y'all I'm a crazy bitch, who needs her meds but always forgets to take them. Why is that?) Oh, I should have finished college, I should have stop letting myself quit when things got overwhelming and scary but that's what I do... It's what the Zoloft is for truly. So, it's really overwhelming and scary for you to quit your job (and brave) and it makes me want to run away, hide in the sand, freeze time. I'm just so frightened. But not you. You're brave, you say, " Let's do it now while we're young and dumb and can recover from our mistakes. Let's earn "real" money so we can have the life we want now, not when we are to old to appreciate it." And you're right. And I'm proud. But really scared too...

You quit your job today.
What if the worst happens... What if I have to get a "real" job?

8 comments:

flutter said...

oh, crap!

Anonymous said...

holy shit kick his ass - nuffsaid

Candy said...

I can feel your terror, and understand it. Good luck.

Dawn said...

I SO know what you're feeling. I hate that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you're ready to throw up. Financial turmoil is the worst. I'm going through it right now.

H Oh said...

It's your time to be
There's no chance unless you take one
And it's time to see
The brighter side of every situation
Somethings are meant to be


I am so ashamed to admit that this tune popped in my head when I was reading this post. Maybe you don't know where I know it from but when you have kids, well you hear alot of stuff. Nuff about that.

I have had a hell of a time the last three years, each time I thought there was no way we'd make it, we made it. I'm not where I thought I'd be but that's ok, you just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS keep the prize in sight. Keep your head up and keep truckin forward, that's the only way you'll get anywhere!

Good Luck!!

(Although hubby could use a stern talking to, you don't just up and quit without consulting your wife. That is just wrong.)

Neurotic Grad Student said...

For crying out loud, set yourself an alarm and take your meds when you're supposed to. Even my most featureless cell phone has an alarm feature.

Sometimes just having the right chemical situation in your brain makes all these things less neurotically challenging.

Kmommy said...

I feel you! I hope he finds a job soon! We moved back to Wisconsin a couple of months ago with no job. It is such a scary situation with kids!! We are so lucky that things worked out just in the nick of time. So I will send some good vibes your way :)

Jade Moonstone said...

I have been the responsible adult for the entire time we've been together. I've sacrificed to put him through school [which he still hasn't finished after 7 years], I pay all the bills, I make sure everything is taken care of. 5 months ago he walked out of his gas station job because, he claimed, it was making him physically ill to have to go to work at that place every day. Since he quit his job before he was sure that he had another one, I gave him a month to find something else. Granted, he wasn't contributing that much, but every little bit helps. On the very last day of the month, as I was prepared to set him on the curb with the trash, his buddy called and offered him a job at an auto parts store and saved his ass.
I know how you feel. Knowing that your safety net is gone is a scary thing. However, maybe this is a sign that it is time for you to step up and get that 'real' job that you seem to be so scared of. What if he died tomorrow? How would you take care of yourself and your children then? Only you can take care of you and you gotta start doing that TODAY.