Posted by Anonymous.
20 years ago the passion was there. 20 years ago it was love and sex and fun. 20 years ago...
Today it's "hurry up and get it over with, I'm tired". Today it's "not now". Today it's been 6 months.
Therapy for me? for her? How do I adjust? I don't want to be platonic best friends. I can't talk to anyone about it. I refuse to talk with friends or family that may hold it against her.
It's up to me. I've been the instigator for years and years. I can't take the "no's" It hurts for weeks. I want to love, to make love. I don't want a quick fuck. I want the intimacy. I miss the intimacy.
I try to talk about it- nothing. I try romance-nothing. I try planning ahead, dropping hints for tonight- she gets a headache, stomach ache... that night- nothing. I try surprise attack- nothing. I try a night away from the hustle and bustle- nothing. I try before I go away for a night- nothing. After I've been away- nothing. In celebration, in sorrow, alcohol, early bed, late bed, middle of the night, morning, early morning...
We are best friends. I know she loves me. I know she is faithful. I know she enjoys making love, when we do.
I am at a loss.